I’m Izzy♡
I’m Izzy, I love art in all forms. From music, writing, and painting to photography, fashion and sex, yes sex because I believe it is an art. The way the body moves during intercourse, the variations of body types is creativity in the sexual sense, but enough about explaining why sex is an art. I love anything autumnal. Autumn gives rise to change and color. It’s the time for harvest and cool winds, romantic movies while cuddling, pumpkin picking, and hot chocolate. I find myself questioning God, religion as a whole, my life and it’s purpose. I am a person who needs freedom and will fight for love and fight for my happiness. Above all, I really adore sunflowers.
4•30•2019 2:45am i figure i should add on to this as i have developed so much as a person in every aspect. i still love art very much. autumn is still the main part of who i am. i still question religion and God, i don’t consider myself a christian or anything of that nature but more of a spiritualist. i believe there is devine energy in which i pray too sometimes. i believe that there is something in the atmosphere larger than us that is meant for good doing and just as you believe one side of a spectrum you must believe there is another side, so yes i believe that there is negative energy larger than us circling in the atmosphere as well and the two are at constant battle. i still wear my heart on my sleeve and that will never change because i believe emotion is strength and that the power i possess is in my heart. i try to think, move, and make decisions with my heart everyday because my heart is true to who i am and what i feel. today, through the midst of the highs and lows of my emotions im trying to expand my wings and fly. in other words im trying to adult and its very hard and exhausting especially when you feel that at times life is redundant, purposeless, and lackluster. this feeling causes me to struggle more than the average i person i guess. for example i have little motivation to do anything other than the bare minimum because i figure what is the point? i feel we're running a rat race where in the end our hearts will stop beating and all the things we achieved, failed, did, and loved will just be a story or legacy for someone else who will then pass and continue the cycle, this time with a different story, different legacy. nonetheless i try to keep myself out of that mindset because it’s very unhealthy for me and causes me to want to quit everything but it truly is a fight. my dream now is so simple and dull but it is a dream and it is mine. i dream of being in my small apartment surrounded by my sunflowers and autumn decor, laying on my bed, and riding the waves of my blankets. i’ll be watching romance movies while my cat climbs up next to me and purs and i fall asleep to the tranquility of it all. there is no guy to accompany me in this dream because finding a guy who will love every inch of me and in every way is something beyond my control. i have not given up on love, i still very much believe in it but i refuse to settle for love that i know can be so much more. i want a love that makes the redundancy of life feel fleeting because through it all we’ll have each other. i’ll laugh at stupid shit, find the rising of the sun more beautiful then it was before, and find that music feels even more euphoric when we’re dancing together and my head’s upon his chest. we’re surrounded by the melody, engulfed by the lyrics that has found its way into our hearts. even autumn will come to be more cozier. well, i’ll wrap this up, im still izzy, im still finding myself, still being the baddest bitch, even on the days where i feel like life is shit. my mind, how i act, and move have become a different motion than what it once was but at the core of it all im still loving sunflowers and still finding the beauty in the yellow of their petals.
IA♡
4•30•2019 2:45am i figure i should add on to this as i have developed so much as a person in every aspect. i still love art very much. autumn is still the main part of who i am. i still question religion and God, i don’t consider myself a christian or anything of that nature but more of a spiritualist. i believe there is devine energy in which i pray too sometimes. i believe that there is something in the atmosphere larger than us that is meant for good doing and just as you believe one side of a spectrum you must believe there is another side, so yes i believe that there is negative energy larger than us circling in the atmosphere as well and the two are at constant battle. i still wear my heart on my sleeve and that will never change because i believe emotion is strength and that the power i possess is in my heart. i try to think, move, and make decisions with my heart everyday because my heart is true to who i am and what i feel. today, through the midst of the highs and lows of my emotions im trying to expand my wings and fly. in other words im trying to adult and its very hard and exhausting especially when you feel that at times life is redundant, purposeless, and lackluster. this feeling causes me to struggle more than the average i person i guess. for example i have little motivation to do anything other than the bare minimum because i figure what is the point? i feel we're running a rat race where in the end our hearts will stop beating and all the things we achieved, failed, did, and loved will just be a story or legacy for someone else who will then pass and continue the cycle, this time with a different story, different legacy. nonetheless i try to keep myself out of that mindset because it’s very unhealthy for me and causes me to want to quit everything but it truly is a fight. my dream now is so simple and dull but it is a dream and it is mine. i dream of being in my small apartment surrounded by my sunflowers and autumn decor, laying on my bed, and riding the waves of my blankets. i’ll be watching romance movies while my cat climbs up next to me and purs and i fall asleep to the tranquility of it all. there is no guy to accompany me in this dream because finding a guy who will love every inch of me and in every way is something beyond my control. i have not given up on love, i still very much believe in it but i refuse to settle for love that i know can be so much more. i want a love that makes the redundancy of life feel fleeting because through it all we’ll have each other. i’ll laugh at stupid shit, find the rising of the sun more beautiful then it was before, and find that music feels even more euphoric when we’re dancing together and my head’s upon his chest. we’re surrounded by the melody, engulfed by the lyrics that has found its way into our hearts. even autumn will come to be more cozier. well, i’ll wrap this up, im still izzy, im still finding myself, still being the baddest bitch, even on the days where i feel like life is shit. my mind, how i act, and move have become a different motion than what it once was but at the core of it all im still loving sunflowers and still finding the beauty in the yellow of their petals.
IA♡